the reunion dinner was lousier than expected... but organiser is very 'nan dang' so i shall not comment. although why do pple always put raw meat together with the fresh food like tofu, fishballs and stuff like that? it's like damm gross lah.. totally didn't eat my fill lah and we paid like 1000 plus for 4 tables of steamboat and 6 other dishes. fucked up. bleah!

not a very good start to the lunar new year. sad memories were brought up. after a year. wounds are still fresh. first time seeing him break down in public. guess he must have been controlling for a long time now. plus work stress... see already also feel like crying. one cry everybody cried. worst is her.... still thinking abt the love she lost. didn't know what to say to her.. so just told her that her mascara wld run.. turns out to be waterproof tho. heh. but really... time will heal the wounds. altho it's going to be a long while more. everytime i go there to pray... tears wld always flow. missing him.. and the laughter he used to bring.

first day... not too bad... hahahah everyone surprised to see me wear tube.. ahhaha like i don't wear?!?! okie lah not that often lah... my cuz thinks i went for breasts enlargement. obviously he is blind. so small still can think that i augmented it?! siao ah?!?! hahahah fucked up. think mom is quite pleased that i wore something 'grown up'. just don't see the point in dressing up all the time. waste time and effort.. cos u're just going to perspire and stuff in the nice nice clothes. and besides.. just going to orchard only mah.. wear so nice for what?! slippers and berms can liao. this year's angpaos going to be lesser than last year's. even tho the number of angpaos collected so far quite a lot. but the money in it.. don't say lah... economy bad.. pple getting old and retiring. need to keep money to 'yang lao' and lesser young ones getting married. CAN SOMEONE I KNOW PLEASE GET MARRIED SOON????? so i can collect angpaos from u.

another thing just popped into mind. i'm thankful for having quite liberal parents. not liberal in the sense of me sleeping ard and they are ok with it. (which btw, i so do not) but more like parents who are okie with me going clubbing and coming home late as long as i let them know where i'm headed. coming home high is also not too big of a prob. looking at my fren... known her since she was borned. can't help but feel restricted for her. esp since the generation now is so diff from mine. (not that i'm THAT old) but yeah.. i mean.. kids now are more streetwise, they mature faster. sometimes controlling them too much also not too good. but of cos parental control is a definite must lah. if not... will go bad.. ahahah sounds so auntie i know. thankfully my mom not as conservative or protective as her mom... i think i will die. actually told my mom thank you. hahah for being such a cool mom. sometimes need to let the kids go out and experience for themselves some
stuff loh.. cannot keep protecting them. tired. need slp. toodles!

ps: so glad the canoeing pple are keeping to the tradition of meeting up. just diff place. waiting for mr lee to org one for the class.. i'm free after tmr arvo or wed!!!